a letter to a dear friend

dear friend,

happy happy birthday. i am so glad i made your day with the things i sent. as i have told you before, if you were here, i should have cooked pancit and celebrated your day with you together with my family and some well meaning friends.

i know that you don't believe in birthdays and christmases, but i know also that you will indulge me since malakas ako sa iyo di ba? the distance that seperates us is not a hindrance to our friendship. not at all. i still can feel the bond and the connection even though we don't communicate that often. thank God for those memories sweet or otherwise. it is worth remisniscing and pondering over. for more than two years, we formed a great relationship that raised some eyebrows, but that didn't stopped us in doing so. it was written that we have been best friends in our former lives.

i admire and support you for the decision you made to change the course of your life. i know your in a crossroads right know but don't worry, in time, all will fall on its proper perspective. i am amazed that you shifted your paradigms because you do things now that you haven't done when you were still here in davao. that just show that you are really ready to meet challenges head on.

i miss you friend. . . a lot. being far doesn't diminish or lessen the feelings i have. i will fight for you because i love you to death too. take care and be safe. hope you will find what you have been seeking for a long, long time. here's praying for your dreams and aspirations to come true. thanks for the gift of friendship. it is one of the best thing that happened to me. many happy returns of the day. . . . . . .

those gorgeous korean guys

it is not often that i admire guys at first glance. but i did, the second time. first was with jo hyun jae who portrayed tj in the korean soap only you and now lee dong wook who is julian in the recent korean soap my girl. gosh, at my age who would think that i will still have palpitations everytime i see these two gorgeous guys? they are tall, good dressers and passable actors since they got me drooling over them aren't they? funny also since i bought the whole dvd collection of only you because i can't wait to see the ending who the leading lady will end up with. now. thanks to the modern technology you can watch advance episodes of my girl at u tube but you have to study the korean language to get the drift of the story. anyway, i know that the primary leading man always end up with the primary leading girl. unless some twist of fate would dictate the scriptwriter to do so otherwise. but i don't think so. remember during the meteor garden days, when the fans knew that jerry yan would end up with the princess instead of barbie xu they would boycott the show? talking about fans domination. well, that is beside the point because we asians like predictability when it comes to our movies and soaps.
know i have a new passion. surfing the net about these two guys. i envisioned myself going to korea also to look for them and have pictures taken together. hahaha. dream on daisy. i was wondering why they look so good with their suit and everything they put on. i know koreans are fond of signature things and these two guys are an example. i just wish they could speak english so if they have the chance to visit our country they don't need and interpreter or i could learn korean. thats it. i have to do it. my husband, who is permanently etched in my heart doesnt have to worry because this is all a passing craze. but i am sorry to say christian bautista, merong ka nang kahati sa aking puso. i think a little competition is healthy. at least as i've researched these two guys are not taken while christian is. nice to fantasize with men who doesnt have relationship because most often than not, you will end up as the leading lady. end of story. if im dreaming i hope i would not wake up yet . . . . .

the living and the dead

hello, i am back. it has been quite a while since i posted. let us just say that i was not my usual self. for the past four days i was down with a fever plus a sore throat. add it up with coughs and colds. some will call it flu but i call it stress. my sister in law died of acute renal malfunction last sunday at dawn, and since then i have been the girl friday, the cook, the entertainer during the wake. my brother who is a surgeon, got a lot of friends, and the funeral parlor was always filled up to the rafters. then i didn't know that we have a lot of relatives from both sides of the family that really went out of their way to give their condolences. i discovered that my brother helped a lot of people in his medical profession because they came along in hordes just to support him and his son on this moment of loss. it is really surprising since they haven't met the deceased but they still commiserate with the living.
so now i believe that friends, relatives, acquaintances and the likes, go to wake to support those who were left behind by the dead and pray for the repose of the soul of those who left this world. also, i realized that i am not my same usual energetic and strong individual. after the interment, i really felt awful already and the fact that it was raining helped to my predicament. so know i know what to do when my time comes to leave. i have to put it on my last will and testament that i want to be cremated so that those i will left behind will not experience what i did.