if i can stop one heart

"if i can stop one heart from breaking,
i shall not live in vain;
if i can ease one life the aching.
or cool one pain,
or help one fainting robin unto
his nest again,
i shall not live in vain".
emily dickinson

my husband called at 1:45 am philippine time yesterday. it gave me a fright because he usually calls during the morning. his voice was weepy and sad and told me that loneliness has taken its toll. he was in a vulnerable state and all i can do is soothe and ask him to come home so the family will be whole once again. we talked for a while until i know that he is pacified and consoled. when common sense prevailed, he said the he just wanted to hear my voice. that broke the dam- i really cried buckets because i really felt the same. i admire, respect and love him for what he is - a very committed individual.

is it a sin for a family member to go overseas and look for a greener pasture? it is just so ironic, that our government can't give what is due to its citizens. i wonder what all these politicians are doing when the senate and congress is in session. one reason that i don't watch news on tv and read the broad sheets at that. all they feed you are lies, accidents, calamities and killings and crimes here and there. good thing there is an entertainment section. that's the one that gets you going.

i just read your blog gie. if i could send you one tupperware of kilayin, i would do so. i empathize with you. loneliness and homesickness is your number one enemy when you are abroad. just think of the lovely things and the good memories you have when you were here. it would be a respite though temporary.

thank god for technology. you can reach your loved ones through text messages, email and of course long distance calls. i still prefer to write though when the mood strikes me. it is a little old fashion but the feeling you get when you receive one is priceless. especially when the sender is eloquent and true to his words.

its still early. i do have a lot of unanswered mails. so i have to get it done. email my friends who matter and write a long letter to the one i love. then maybe i could stop one heart from breaking.